I was born in England and moved to the US with my family when I was 6 years old. Apparently, my dad was fascinated with America and felt there would be more opportunity here for social workers (ha!). The house we lived in in England was a 14th century house in the country surrounded by cows. My mom founded a playgroup there, they had a bed and breakfast, a huge vegetable garden, a weeping willow tree, lovely friends and neighbors, and life was...well...idyllic. My dad was offered a job in Philadelphia, so after visiting, he rented an apartment and told my mom reassuringly that Roxborough (specifically Ridge Ave) was EXACTLY like our main street in Hereford, and she would fit right in. Umm..not sure who's reading this but let me assure you unequivocally that Hereford and Roxborough are just about as opposite as you can possibly get.
Anyway....
This year I went back with my dad for a short one week stay. He inherited a house in Sussex looking onto The Downs and wanted me to go with him to reconnect and do a lot of bike riding.
Our favorite pub is the Devil's Dyke. When we first arrived we went here for dinner and this is what I watched and now determined to do as soon as I can:
We did a lot of riding along the coast and were lucky enough to catch the tail end of an awesome storm that came and hung out for a day or so. I was struck by the difference between Americans and the English with this. Where as in the US we are told to batten the hatches, not go out, store up food and stay glued to the television, in England there is definitely more connection with nature, more awe and less fear. There were people lined up along the coast, sitting inches from the waves and snuggling, children jumping around close to huge waves, and even a 60 year old man getting lashed by the waves hitting the 300 year old pier (dad, care to share??). I really think we are taught here to fear nature and to tame it, whereas in an older culture, they walk in closer balance. Does that make sense?
I miss England. I can't explain it. I believe my body knows that the land I walk on there all of my ancestor's have too. There is a feeling of coming home like I have never known before, and my soul misses the air, the soil, the trees, and the people, in a way I can't fully explain. I do know this:my family made a terrible mistake leaving England, and I want to go back. I want my children to know my homeland, to have fresh rosy cheeks, to walk the ancient footpaths, and to eat the god aweful food I was raised on. We wouldn't be rich, no tv's in every room or multiple cars in the driveway, but we wouldn't have to drive miles to malls either, or be scared of our children playing on the sidewalks, or being as worried about being shot for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. No, the government isn't perfect there, but for chrissakes, there is national healthcare! Our family pays well over $1200 a month for shitty healthcare and it's ridiculous. At least they are taming the congestion in London, and importing cars that get over 83.5 miles to the gallon. That's right, regular cars in England get 4-5 times the gas mileage we do. Explain that to me, please? My dad's car is 6 years old and totally outdated and gets 45 mpg city.
I know I was raised here, but I have always felt different from my American friends, and when I go back there I don't feel I belong either. I think that's probably the norm for any immigrant, but I feel it no differently, even if I have been here for so long.
AAnyway...some pictures below...
A car I should own.
A lane I should live on.
My dad and I on the Thames.
Biking country roads in East Sussex. I think I may have had a Guinness or three at this point. Quiet! It's good for you!
And people wonder why I was a bit off upon my return. I love all of you but I want to go home.
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